Sometimes I wonder what makes an introvert. One can guess till their blue in the face. We are constantly using words to make ourselves feel smarter or more significant. However it seams that life just is like a funny game we play and everyone is trying to get the bragging rights.
I think back to when I was a child and what I thought I wanted in a match. I was about 12 or 13 when I first heard the words "soulmate." I use to play with my barbies and my babies and pretend they were my children and that my husband was on his way home from work. I use to ride my bike as if it was my car and find the nearest stoop or steps to sit on and pretend that was "home base."
In my imagination I never could have fathomed what my almost forty year old self would be doing or where I would be living, or even how I would be living. I would pretend as a preteen and give my imaginary husband names I heard on tv or in school. Thinking back I grew up in high school very alone. I would have crushes on several boys but so shy and unassure of myself I would just imagine. Now at almost 40 I can begin to understand that this is what girls at that age all do and feel.
Back then I heard the word "soulmate" and said out loud, I was proclaiming, I don't know whether it was to god, or the devil or the universe or who exactly but I said, " If I have a soulmate I would love to meet them someday! We don't have to get married but if their is one for me then I will meet them." I didn't know the adult dating life I would travel and the amount of soulmates I would truly meet!
Soulmates were all I have ever met in my adult life. The first time I met a soul mate I was 15 years old and it was my first day of work at McDonald's. My mom worked there and so it was easy for her to get me a job. I had pleaded with my parents to let me work and earn money for myself so they agreed and I was off to work. I started that day at Mickey D's and I didn't know it but I ran into a girl we can call Vashawn. So Vashawn looked at me during orientation and I looked at her and we would laugh and giggle. We would talk about the customers and the workers. We would talk about school, our job and the boys we liked. You see Vashawn lived in a different school and went to a different school then I did. It wasn't until later own in our amusings that we realized we had the exact same birthday! Needless to say my friendship with Vashawn was short lived since she was fired. We never exchanged numbers so I never heard from her again.
A lot of people think that you must be in a romantic relationship in order to be a soulmate, but that could not be further from the truth. I learned however by meeting Vashawn that I should be more myself.
